Here I am at the edge

The big question Each day I fight my depression , and each day I think I am losing the battle.  My family is convinced the move we made two months ago gave me new energy, that shows how adept I have become at hiding the truth   https://hereiamattheedgeblogspotcouk.wordpress.com/2017/08/02/i-must-be-a-good-actor/ . The battle raging in my mind is not only about the lack of sales for my work, but about the work itself   http://alsdomain.weebly.com/whats-happening/nothing-left-is-all-i-have#.WYGy_ojyvIU

Long life I expect, at some time or other, you have pondered on the subject of immortality and longevity . While to some, the thought of living until you are into old age may appear a likable prospect. For people such as me, longevity means endless troubles,  I can speak only for myself, but I do not wish for a life beyond a few years more, though my family history should dictate I live for another 15 - 20 years. My parents didn't want me; I found this out a few months before my mother died nine years ago. I always knew something was off in our relationship, but I thought it was my fault - every other thing that went wrong was blamed on the Only Child. I may not have inherited money from my parents, but they left me something - a lot of genetic flaws - I feel as though I am made from the leftovers of the Frankenstein monster.  The book on the post is about longevity and its issues.