Here I am at the edge

I don't blow my own trumpet enough. One thing I have been told many times is that I don't say to people how good I am as a writer . The reason I don't is that I feel self-praise is no praise at all. I'd instead paste the comments of other people telling how good they think I am. Unlike many writers, I don't turn my blogs into book blogs, even if there are two platforms to get my e-books  from  Amazon   and    Draft2Digital . The fact that one writer considered me such a threat she spent months trashing my award-winning e-book Chronicles of Mark Johnson online makes me laugh, after all, she is over 70.

I am not sure if being a multi-genre writer has helped me. Readers who have followed me for years will know that I earned reputations for writing in several genres. My earliest reply was for supernatural/ spiritual stories, later came crime, and finally science fiction. ​ I am not sure if this is a bonus. My Amazon bestseller is fiction based on a Victorian mystery Did we see him? . The only book to get a 5-star rating is based on a spiritual adventure Nerja . In recent times, I have written a Christian Fiction romance called A Homecoming . This book took two years to write and is a bargain at only $9.

Celebrity status Book signings https://hereiamattheedgeblogspotcouk.wordpress.com/2017/09/13/facing-my-fear/  are a running joke among my close friends and me. I go to some at our branch of  Waterstones , but the thought of doing one myself is daunting, the only time I tried to beat my fear of public speaking it came back and bit me.   I suppose if I turn my last  e-book   www.draft2digital.com/book/235628  into a paperback, I will need to consider doing a signing

Science Fiction writer I wonder if I would ever have thought of myself in the same way others did? Because of the number of sales that my  Science Fiction  series   http://alsdomain.weebly.com/forgestriker—the-hit-series.html  has made, many people consider me as a  best seller  – I am not one of them – despite over 700 sales in almost four years, I still consider myself as a hack writer   https://hereiamattheedge.blogspot.co.uk/2015/12/i-am-vagrant-journalist.html#.Wafq8ch97IU . If my  e-book  sales had kept up, there may have come a time when I would have accepted the title, but the sales have died away despite being on two of the largest distributors  Amazon   https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B007U50BOI   and  Draft2Digital   https://www.draft2digital.com/book/150338

I need to believe there will be good times to come I used to believe there were good days ahead, but I was fooling myself. Several years after I posted this blog, and the only change is that I no loger care if an eBook sells.

WHY? Why did I return to #writing ? My writing was never about the money to me, after all beyond my #scifi  series Forgestriker  nothing has sold. To me, a sale is a sign of appreciation for the time invested, I only make $0.60 cents per #ebook .  The main reason I returned is that I needed a release for the build up of stress in my life over the last two months, it isn't only the fire that created the tension there are other issues involved.

The success of Forgestriker It is hard for me to accept but with over 800 e-books sold, I need to think of myself as a BestSeller in the world of ScienceFiction .  I have fought the title because I don't make a lot of money from my  e-book sales   but with the Forgestriker series selling over 800 e-books, I was told by friends and colleagues to consider myself a bestseller.