Here I am at the edge

As it won't happen Now appears to be the opportune moment to tell you, I was considering entering a prestigious science fiction writing section that paid for stories. I could have sent in my award winner for a lower rate. I decided not to post anything in; I don't have any confidence in my ability to entertain the readers these days.

I have the ideas It's a daily struggle to fight my demons, which is why today as though my battle is lost and the urge is to write is lost . In my search for new markets, this week I started to write a story about a spiritual encounter in Israel . As I doubt the story will get published, the story is about a journalist's Aliyah  and a trip to Masada . The story is fiction, but I always wanted to visit the Holy Land . I need to find the faith that others have in me, as the Jewish people have a strong belief in the word of the Lord, I have started to read the Bible in the attempt to find some faith in my work  as a writer.