Here I am at the edge

I am losing my sight.  Other than a drawn-out death, one of my greatest fears is losing my sight.  This is not because I was a writer until last year. This has been a concern of mine for many years, more because I was an avid reader before I took up writing over a decade ago. The reason I am losing my sight is I cannot afford an eye-test, or new spectacles and the strain on my eyes has caused damage. Last year the Department of Works and Pensions changed my payments from Disabled Living Allowance to Personal Independence Payments , and my payments got cut by £40 a week. PIP is based on how your disability affects your life, not on the extent of your limitations.

My Russian following.  To some people, the knowledge that this blog has a large following in  Ukraine may come as a surprise, but not to me, for many years I have had a significant following in the old Soviet bloc. I put this down to the fact that I can write easier like Len Deighton than Ian Flemming . I am used to living with few luxuries, years ago, I turned down a writing contract for this reason. I could not relate to the world of the wealthy, so I was unable to write about their lives. I see myself more in the mold of Harry Palmer than James Bond .

Go to Scribd If you like what I am writing , but do not wish to pay the writer ; you can pick up several of my short story selection of eBooks on the Scribd site for FREE . On my account, it will show as a sale, but I won't see the money, then if you enjoy the eBook , you may decide I am worth paying for my time.

I am prepared for more bad news. My condition may not be as severe as I think it is. My  kidney cancer has not caused me any amount of pain over the four years. I believe I have had it. I am prepared to be told that it has spread to my right leg and I may need to lose a part of my right leg as the leg bones have ached for years, and this is a symptom of bone cancer.