Here I am at the edge

The only vacation I will get The main reason I enjoy foreign films is that they show me cities and countries I will never see, hell, these days anywhere beyond my room will soon be beyond me :(                                           Ay, Carmela This film is set during the Spanish Civil War  and is the story of an actress (played by the beautiful Carmen Maura ) who refused to sing a song that betrayed her love of the country she loved and died for, Spain  before the revolution.                                                  Contratiempo This movie from Spain shows the lengths some parents are willing to go to for justice in the killing of their child, featuring Ana Wagener in an enthralling tour de force.

Is there any point to it? Tomorrow should have been the big day, but the way things have turned out this week I am not sure I want the wheelchair, after all, what is the point of being able to get out if you can't enjoy the time?

The forlorn hope Today, I ordered a book cover for my  e-book  to turn the e-book versions     https://www.draft2digital.com/book/235628  /  https://www.amazon.com/dp/B075BJH2D2  into paperback editions. If there are enough sales, I could be tempted to write a novel shortly

All things have their time  For several years, I have built up a  library  of books and  e-books ​ for the day when I wouldn't be able to get out; that day is near at hand this year.

My life is like a Biblical parable People go on about  austerity  and cutbacks; to me, it's a way of life never having had a lot of money.   I have a family to run which includes paying the price for someone else's child for over 30 years.    I have gone without for so long that saving for tomorrow is my lifestyle   biblehub.com/genesis/41-20.htm .   If I did get some good fortune, I would always put back a little for the times ahead when things are not so good - and there are plenty.

The Colorado Kid If you look at the end of the dockside, you can see a red shed that is a museum; I used to work there many years ago. Last night, I was watching the gulls swoop for fish in the docks, when I recalled the mysterious death of a man in Sydney in the 1940's.  He was small, with manicured fingernails and well dressed; he had no ID on him at the time of his death, and nobody recalled seeing him either get on the ferry across the river or get off. He was found sitting by a bollard as if he was asleep.  It was later discovered that he choked on some meat from his sandwich and the gulls ate his food. His name was never found, and nobody reported him missing. But to have no ID only years after the war was over was a mystery in itself as that was a criminal offense at the time. This mystery is the story behind "The Colorado Kid" by Stephen King.

Celebrity status Book signings https://hereiamattheedgeblogspotcouk.wordpress.com/2017/09/13/facing-my-fear/  are a running joke among my close friends and me. I go to some at our branch of  Waterstones , but the thought of doing one myself is daunting, the only time I tried to beat my fear of public speaking it came back and bit me.   I suppose if I turn my last  e-book   www.draft2digital.com/book/235628  into a paperback, I will need to consider doing a signing