Being a bestseller and an award-winner
Did winning the award change me?
Yes, I changed a great deal. After the award, I became more insecure and concerned about the quality of my work, until this month.
Winning the award meant little for the book, as in the three years since the award it has only sold one copy - so much for its value to the readers.
To some of my writing colleagues, I am classed as a bestseller, the term is relative in that I sold more than some of them - I am far from making any large amount of money from writing. This is one reason for my change in attitude https://hereiamattheedge.wordpress.com/2015/12/07/on-line-writing-jobs/.
With one high-profile book selling in a forty-nine book selection on three sales platforms, I would hardly say that I'm a #bestseller.