The depression hits in
For months, I've been trying to answer the question - why bother?
Some writers will tell you, we write because we like to tell stories; others will say storytelling in an art few people can master - I was one of those who learned the art.
On an exceptional month, I make the grand sum of $10. The rich part of this is compared to some of my colleagues - I'm considered a bestseller. Such is the sad world I dwell in.
Time after time I ask the same question http://hereiamattheedge.blogspot.co.uk/2015/07/why-do-i-bother.html#.VlPhrFXhDnA, as yet I have not found an answer that satisfies me.
Being forced to accept that people aren't willing to pay for my work http://hereiamattheedge.blogspot.co.uk/2015/11/acceptance-is-key.html#.VlPibFXhDnA, yet you'll happily read the blog for free is a bitter pill to swallow.
At the end of the week, I shall have to end my link with Grammarly. In easy to understand terms, I would be paying three times what I get a month - on a good month - to maintain the standard of writing. The site is well worth the $20 a month fee for the quarter plan, but I don't make that much most quarters.
My other blog at http://alsdomain.weebly.com/ is still open for reading, that used to get well over five times the readers this blog does, but I was forced to stop writing it because I couldn't afford the upkeep.
The only good thing about this blog is that it is FREE. It costs me only a few minutes of my time to give YOU pleasure.
As my worst month closes, I wonder if this time next month I will be writing, or if I will care if I don't write again http://hereiamattheedge.blogspot.co.uk/2015/11/the-unwritten-worlds-of-alan-place.html#.VlPlY1XhDnA.
If you wondered where the title of the blog came from, or what it means here is your answer. Four years ago, I got the title from a thought, I thought I was on the edge of a breakthrough; four years later and I am on the edge of quitting writing, what a turnaround.