The title comes from a track by the Chicago-based Americana group Dolly Varden #DollyVarden http://www.chicagotribune.com/entertainment/music/ct-dolly-varden-review-20150503-story.html. Many years ago, I had the pleasure in seeing them perform in Bristol. They are the first group I asked to sign a cd at a gig.
The title is apt for how I have felt for many months - it has little to do with sales of my e-books. The malady http://hereiamattheedge.blogspot.co.uk/2015/11/i-used-to-love-wrting.html#.Vk8ha1XhDnA is centered around the lack of readers for the blog considering the vast number of connections online.
I can't wait anymore
My friends tell me it can take ten years or more to get recognised as a writer - to sustain the waiting period, I need faith there is something ahead - at the moment I have no faith http://hereiamattheedge.blogspot.co.uk/2015/06/so-many-lies.html#.Vk8i5VXhDnA. When people lie to you, you tend to get blase' about being asked where to buy material. There might be genuine buyers in the world - I would like to think. This writer has been lied to so many times in the past four years; he doesn't believe when people ask him anymore.
The outcome is that having being lied to for four years - mostly by Canadians - and with a low value for the global internet. I am on the verge of giving up writing. I used to enjoy writing but the fun has gone http://hereiamattheedge.blogspot.co.uk/2015/11/does-it-matter.html#.Vk8mJlXhDnA.
I might continue writing my stories for a particular friend who enjoys my stories but for the public; I don't see a future for my work.
When I wrote this article, http://hereiamattheedge.blogspot.co.uk/2015/11/no-600.html#.Vk8m2lXhDnA I was referring to Christmas. With the current sales trend for my once popular series http://hereiamattheedge.blogspot.co.uk/2015/04/forgestriker-collection.html#.Vk8nX1XhDnA, I don't see the series reaching 600 sales by this time next year.